careless whisper; again.

tak siap assignment? biasa la tuh. tapi, nak tanak pon, kena jugak siapkan. tuh la lumrah budak-budak u neh. mula-mula dulu tak biasa gak. tensyen tensyen. alhamdulillah. makin lama makin ukeh la, kot?

aku pecaya, ramai je yang menyampah ngan assignment. sama je la macam aku. tapi, menyumbang markah kat carry mark tak agak-agak habang-habang dan hakak-hakak assignments neh. wohoho.

well, today is my late grandmother's birthday. so, well, happy birthday. ukeh. tanak cite panjang. i just - i miss her so much that makes me wanna cry out loud. i miss everything about her. ukeh. i couldn't even look at her picture. i am so really miss her. Ya Allah. hem.

and. i miss PCS. very very much! i miss telling him my stories. i miss sharing my secrets with him. i miss to hear his voice. i miss to dial his phone number. i miss to message him. i miss his wishes. i miss his teeth. i miss his face. i miss his hair. i miss, i miss, i miss, i miss everything about him!

entahlah ye. bukannya aku tak pernah hargai dia. aku sentiasa hargai dia. pasal tuh aku sentiasa share ape-ape pon ngan dia. dia tau a lot pasal aku. and he understands me more than i do. kenapa ye? kenapa dia pergi dulu sebelum aku? kenapa perlu tinggalkan aku sorang-sorang?

hem. tatau la kenapa rasa rindu tak terhingga tiba-tiba.

it is so crowded inside and yet it is empty.

i've let go of everything. betul kata abang. bukan semua yang kita nak kita bulih dapat. sebab, kalau kita dapat semua yang kita nak, nanti kita tatau nak bersyukur. nanti kita bongkak. nanti kita berlagak.

aku tanak aku ilang rasa bersyukur.
aku tanak rasa bongkak.
aku tanak berlagak.
tanak!
tamau!

semua yang terjadi pasti ade hikmah. kita je yang tatau. setiap yang gagal itu sebenarnya sedang berjaya. betul ke? well, i should agree with it. because i am getting use to what people called - failure. ye la. kita tak semestinya sentiasa berada di atas. kadang kita ada kat bawah jugak. barulah adil. kan kita suka hidup yang adil.

dan, the most important thing is that; tangan yang di atas lebih baik daripada tangan yang di bawah. - biarlah kita lebih banyak memberi daripada banyak menerima kerana bila kita lebih banyak memberi, kita akan rasa senang hati dan lapang. bukankah berbuat baik itu suatu amalan yang mulia?

never regret things. itu akan sentiasa jadi prinsip hidup aku, biar apa pun yang org kate. kalau aku ade silap, aku takkan kesal. malah, aku akan cuba jadikan ianya sebagai satu cabaran dan dorongan untuk meningkatkan dan menambah baik diri aku.

cry more. let everything out. all out. until you have nothing. zero. blank. empty. jangan terlalu banyak ketawa kerana ia melalaikan. banyakkan menangis dan banyak muhasabah diri.

ukeh. tibe-tibe dengar lagu careless whisper dari laptop dayah. sayunye hati. i love the song. it is so comfortable.



I feel so unsure,
As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor.
As the music dies...
Something in your eyes,
Calls to mind a silver screen,
And all its sad goodbyes.

I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feet have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend,
And waste this chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

ooh ooh

Time can never mend,
The careless whisper of a good friend.
To the heart and mind,
Ignorance is kind
There's no comfort in the truth,
Pain is the all you'll find.

I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feet have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend,
And waste this chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

Tonight the music seems so loud,
I wish that we could lose this crowd.
Maybe it's better this way,
We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say.

We could have been so good together,
We could have lived this dance forever...
But now, who's gonna dance with me?
Please stay.

And I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feet have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend,
And waste this chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

ooh ooh

Now that you're gone...
Now that you're gone...
Now that you're gone...
Was what I did so wrong?
So wrong that you had to leave me alone?

hey hey. esok present AD. then, cuma tinggal IP je. one more to go. so, cepatlah! tak sabarnye.

p/s : the lyrics mean so much to me. well, feeling worst is even better now. =)